Almost Over

This week is finally over!

I am really looking forward for the upcoming week, a little excited but at the same time anxious – here comes “changes” again, why does it have to be so inevitable ?

This week though I only worked for 4 days I feel pretty exhausted and it feels like my brain is not functioning properly anymore. oh boy! I mean seriously I am not sure of what I’m doing , not sure if my thoughts are still making sense…

Virtual Insanity – that’s the song being played at the radio right now, oh my , I think I’m insane…I want my sanity back. haha.

Of course I’m kidding ( a little )

I don’t know how many times I mentioned that I’m thinking of so many things right now…uhm, but I do and most of the time I struggle trying to re-FOCUS myself on things that I should do, what I should not do, what I want to do, setting my priorities and working on my attitude.

“change” is constant there are changes that is unacceptable to a person but no matter what happen that person has to deal with it.  Just have to look at the pros and cons all the time…

So far for this week I learned a lot regarding the people around me.

  • I guess they were not really trashtalking they’re telling the truth. The truth that I tried to deny and been ignoring because like I what I said I am blindly optimistic, I thought that there is something good about him…but, well, hmmm…. I better keep my mouth shut.For a moment there I felt bad for myself for falling for him but at the end of the day its a lesson learned, that’s the most important.
  • I figured who the “real” people are and I’m glad to be friends with them
  • A blast from the past , well March wasn’t that so long ago haha.IMY Pong.
  • The butterflies are gone.
  • Someone else is making an effort to make me smile though, unfortunately last night was incomplete. oh no bad news.

3:11 PM : bed weather. Its raining again.

– yeah I am bittersweet –


Linkin Park – Rolling In The Deep (cover)

OMG I honestly LOVE Adele’s Rolling in the deep, at some point I thought that I can relate to the message of the song but now I don’t think so, haha but I adore her voice so much…I think its pretty amazing , really cool and this may sound funny but I kinda want to have a voice like her – no kidding!

It’s just cool!

Then I saw this video of Linkin Park in my tumblr dashboard titled Rolling in the deep (cover) I played the video right away!

Me and my sister is really a huge fan of LP , I have no idea if this video is  old or something but I just saw it today and I love it…nice song, awesome band… geeeez I can’t think of anything better than this version.

Must See! Highly Recommended!

Astig diba? 😀

ok lyrics from ( as usual )

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it’s bringing me out the dark
Finally, I can see you crystal clear
Go head and sell me out and I’ll lay your ship bare

See how I’ll leave with every piece of you
Don’t underestimate the things that I will do

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and its bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
And you played it to the beat

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I’ve heard one of you and I’m gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there, as mine sure won’t be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
And you played it to the beat

I soooooo love this band! Definitely 2 thumbs up for this one!

RANT:Trashtalks & Copulatory Imperative

    “leave the trash talking and rumor spreading to Gossip Girl”

That quote is from Etiquette of A Lady and I just thought of that because some guys tend to be more of a gossiper than girls.  I cannot believe it, I mean why did Paul have to trash talk Peter when Paul knows that I like (d) Peter ?

When I like someone I tend to be blindly optimistic and I don’t dwell in their past no matter how nasty it may seem. I don’t need to know every detail of their “worst part of their life” especially if its a thing in the past. Whatever happens in the past stays there.

And if it came to a point where I suddenly feel like I don’t like the person as it used to be I don’t look for reasons to hate him. He may have hurt me in some ways ( and he doesn’t even know about it so obviously he doesn’t care ) but I don’t take that as an excuse to get back at him and hurt him too – that is so pathetic and immature!

You cannot use someone’s flaws to make yourself look better , trust me that even makes you the worst person in the universe.

So Paul stop trashtalking about how bad Peter is, you don’t know him too well and I know you wouldn’t want to know him better, but the thing is he didn’t do anything wrong to you, he may have done it to someone else but I don’t understand why it affected you so much and now you despise him.

Does it make you feel better ?  Do you think it makes you a better person spreading rumors about him? – ehem you might wanna go to the loo first 😀

Copulatory Imperative 

The reason why I searched for this word is because I thought of the movie “Someone Like You” starring Ashley Judd and Hugh Jackman, my favorite part was when Hugh is trying to comfort Ashley and he told her that “Ray is not the last man you are ever going to love…” and that’s when Ashley started crying more…that is if I remember it right.

Whenever I have a broken heart I tell myself that line “He is not going to be the last man I’m going to love…” sometimes it works!

So I googled the lines from that movie and read that term Copulatory Imperative – which at first sounds like a spell from Hogwarts to me, but I thought of searching for the meaning of it and according to it is  a term used to describe males of all species. This is the explanation as to why every man is a womanizer. It clarifies why men are constantly on the move, cannot entirely commit and are consistently unfaithful. In the movie, Someone Like You, Ashley Judd’s character explains that men are habitually on the quest for “the new cow” so they can fulfill their “copulatory imperative.” They need to spread their seeds eternally.

Thus, men are innately barbaric and rest assured they will never be fully domesticated.

But I know some guys are not like that…some of them are like Michael Hosea ( from the book Redeeming Love ) or probably close to being one.

And upon reading this it made me realize why Mr.Weasley is so interested in having a bittersweethappiness …

Why shinetz left for the 2nd time…

Why you-know-who seems to be not content with his life and exploring for more options…

Why he-who-must-not-be-named is always looking for other cow I mean girls 😀

But this doesn’t mean that I’m a manhater – oh my definitely not! I love being around with boys but not flirting , just hanging around, having a good laugh…chill!

Got a few best buds around me, Kuya M. , Lava and the boys from my current team…

Oh well, got some answers for my questions already…


I remember I saw Ed Westwick’s poster in Penshoppe! YAY! OMG!

: he is sooooooooo cute – xoxo

-yeah i am bittersweet –

Highlights for last week

Last week I’ve been pretty busy and lazy so I never really had the chance the update my blog,I have some items on draft which I’m supposed to update but I just didn’t have much time.

Well it just feels like there’s so many stuff in my plate and I really don’t know where to start, worried that if I started something it’ll affect the rest and ruin everything but the more I delay these stuff the longer that it haunts me, I barely even have a good effin sleep – and because of this I feel nostalgic too.

I guess it was true my level of happiness decreased because I decided to turn away from something, but hey its always better to know the truth and be disappointed than never asked and always wonder – and if my assumptions are wrong then so be it. And besides I can’t keep something I never had, can’t call someone “mine” if I never had him in the 1st place. Truth hurts I’m just waiting for it to set me free , I’m not yet free from his memories – duh I see him 5 days in a week.oh well. I will soon get over this feeling. I know I still have 10,499 reasons to be happy , he is just another ordinary man I fell inlove with  and definitely he wont be the last man I am ever going to love…


Last July 19 we had our family day at Enchanted Kingdom but unfortunately it was raining like the whole day so it wasn’t that fun, 2 things made me happy that day. 1st is when we decided to ride the space shuttle : me, Rica, Boss E, John, Oz and his daughter Andy and Calpo.  Oh boy that was fun!

2nd thing that made me happy – oh, let the pictures describe it 🙂

: me and my cookies and cream

: Mother and her cheese twistix. We hang out at Ice Monster for a while.

:Me and Mother in front of Enchanted Kingdom, she wanted to have the wizard under her umbrella too and I’m like “what the???” – LOL!

Last June 29 we had our townhall and this month’s theme is really cool!  Each team got a specific wedding theme to show off, ours is the Japanese Wedding – too bad we didn’t have pictures. But to explain what happened with our Japanese Wedding – since we thought of having some famous Japanese Characters on our set.

:Caloy was our groom and Katy is our bride but instead of dressing up like that one.

:Caloy portrayed the role of Tuxedo Mask – hehe

:And Katy as Sailormoon – haha

Thanks to my Mother dearest, she made the dress in just one day. You’re the best!                And my role is

:Sadako / the flower girl, I was holding a dead rose too :D. We used the songs from Voltes 5 as the “wedding song” , Kenchi did a great job in singing, the old man memorized the song! The part that sucks is when we danced – because I don’t dance at all , but it was cool I was laughing most of the time.

One of the nicest highlights for last week :

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Yeah I can totally relate to that , he even smiled at me argh the nerve! Hahaha  I swear I get butterflies whenever he’s around but the moment I realized the bittersweet truth , I’m like…

– yeah I am bittersweet –

: I did a general cleaning of my room too , I think this will help to have a good sleep 😀