He is The Man

I grew up without my father around, he left to have his “american dream” when I was just a year old,met him when I was in high school.

But all those years that he’s not around my grandfather was there for us, he and grandma of course.

Being the eldest grandchild I get to experience his love I guess in many many ways compared to my cousins who were 10 years or more younger than me.

Every summer was spent with them…it was fun you know, growing up with my grandparents around…letting me play as long as I want to.

My Lolo (grandfather)  taught me to say “yes lolo”, he’s very protective…hardworking…caring…he’s just the type of Man that you would want to have as a father.

It is his birthday today…but I don’t know how to make this day a happy day when he’s already gone.

He’s been having some health issues since 2011, I guess that’s due to his age and as we all know  our body will eventually deteriorate, he fought, for a while…but I guess he knew that this day will come.

I have dreamt of kissing him in his forehead again, embrace him and just stay close to him. I guess from now on, I can only do this in my dreams.

I wish I was there.But at the same time I don’t think I can bear to see him in pain.

I wanted to him to stay for a little bit longer, I wanted to ask him to wait for me because I will go home tomorrow…but then I thought, if he wait a little bit more that means he’ll have to bear the pain for a while, waiting will prolong his agony.

I understand and I know that he’s in a better place now, no more pain Lolo. You’re probably enjoying this, you’re with your brothers and sisters and your parents.

That’s the thing with death, you know it’s coming but you can never be prepared for it.

You are the best man/father/grandfather for me Lolo.

I miss you and I love you so much, when it’s my turn…please be there for me.SAM_1629


Happy Grandparent’s Day ♥

 Greetings to all the grandparents in the universe!

People meet my Lolo and Lola.

→ I took a picture of their wedding photo, but it was placed on the highest part of their house that I have to stand on a chair to take this pic.

→ This is better compared to the 1st photo.Lola got a pretty nice wedding dress. She’s really beautiful and Lolo is soooo handsome.

It’s always nice to see their wedding picture up on the wall every time we go home to Pangasinan.After all these years.Lola told me a few stories during their younger years and I can only imagine how they used to hide away from those Spaniards – wait, was it the Spanish or Japanese?

→ Grandfather & Grandmother, after almost 55 years of marriage (and counting). Not even once I heard any story that one of them cheated, Lola can be such a nagger sometimes but Lolo loves her no matter she says.

→ Miss you…and will always love you! Can’t wait to spend another “grand vacation” with you guys.

† Remembering also today is the 9/11 tragedy.