Turning Tables and then some…

Lately I’ve been watching and catching up with Glee, well not only that I noticed that I have also been addicted to watching a lot in ETC. Like Tyra Bank’s show America’s next top model, I’ve been getting a lot of ideas from that show that might serve a GREAT purpose for my life in the near future ( so I always have my fingers crossed ) , also the Glee Project.  I like Damian,and I guess its true there’s something about the “british accent” that makes them really sexy…haha, oh but Damian is a young guy, but he’s really cute especially when he’s nervous and still smiling. I like the Keeping up with Kardashians too, this is really funny.

Then again here’s another song of my favorite “ADELE” , Turning Tables performed by Gwyneth Paltrow in Glee.

Adele’s voice is really amazing , I just love it!Believe it or not , her song Rolling in the Deep is my wake up song 🙂

I adore Paltrow’s voice too…and so far this is one of the performances in Glee that actually moved me. I can’t say that I can really relate to the message of the song…but this is my favorite line:

So I won’t let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won’t ask you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you what you think you gave me

Hmm, I guess this is what you get if your heart and your mind doesn’t get along pretty well. When your heart is telling you to go and take a risk , just enjoy it but your mind is telling you that this is silly and that you should stop before things gets more complicated than what is right now.

They say that when you’re inlove , you would do a lot of crazy stuff unconsciously most of the time. But I say , when your heart is broken you will do a lot of crazier stuff.

The situation is really familiar.

I’ve been thru this and I never thought that I’ll be in this state again, so ironic.

I guess History does repeat itself : my life turned 360 degrees.

Its good to have someone who will take care of you, who’s worried when you’re not feeling well…who’s a little jealous when you’re talking to some other guys especially if he knows that the guy you’re talking to is your crush or used to be your crush.

It feels great knowing that there’s someone excited to see you everyday.

Exactly what I need.

But I was born with an enormous need for affection and a terrible need to give it back.

All I want is to prove it but I can’t. My actions are limited.And I have to be silent most of the time.

Why does it have to be so complicated?

And how can I make this stop? Because sooner or later this has to end.

Oh well.

Video and Lyrics: as always thanks to youtube and letssingit.com

Close enough to start a war,
All that I have is on the floor,
God only knows what we’re fighting for,
All that I say, you always say more,

I can’t keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can’t breathe,

So I won’t let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won’t ask you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you what you think you gave me,
It’s time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,

Under hardest guise I see, ooh,
Where love is lost, your ghost is found,
I braved a hundred storms to leave you,
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down,

I can’t keep up with your turning tables,
Under your thumb, I can’t breathe,

So I won’t let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won’t ask you, you to just desert me,
I cant give you what you think you gave me,
It’s time to say goodbye to turning tables,
Turning tables,

Next time I’ll be braver,
I’ll be my own savior,
When the thunder calls for me,
Next time I’ll be braver,
I’ll be my own savior,
Standing on my own two feet,

I won’t let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won’t ask you, you to just desert me,
I can’t give you what you think you gave me,
It’s time to say goodbye to turning tables,
To turning tables,
Turning tables, yeah,
Turning, oh.
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Just A Dream

Couldn’t get over this effin song, I know this is not the kind of music that I would listen to like everyday but I found myself listening to it for the past 3 days.

Have to blame my cousin Ronnie ( a.k.a Dongke’ ) for this, he had it on his wall I think the other day , I decided to download the song and now I’m addicted to it. I like this version, err no, I LHURVE IT so effin much – geeez so gay!

The lyrics were a bit different from the original but I think its great! I love the voice of Cristina Grimmie , makes me feel bad a little bit because I have such a horrible singing voice. haha.

I like her hair too, wonder if it will look good on me, he he.

Thanks to Lukey, you’re amazing! Saw the video and lyrics on your blog and I must say I really really like everything about your blog dude! Thumbs up!

I can’t help myself from having this song in my blog.

and the lyrics too, again thanks to Lukey

check him at : http://www.lukeyishandsome.com/

(Sam Tsui)

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
(Christina Grimmie)
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Sam Tsui)
I was at the top and I was like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now you found your own replacement.
I swear now that I can’t take it, knowing somebody’s got my baby.
And now you ain’t around, baby I can’t think.
I shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I’m tied.
Cuz I know that it just ain’t right.

(Together)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.
(Christina Grimmie)
When I’m ridin I swear I see your face at every turn.
I’m tryin to get my usher on, but I can let it burn.
And I just hope you’ll know you’re the only one I yearn for.
No wonder I’ll be missing when I’ll learn?

Didn’t give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I’m in the club thinkin all about you baby.

Hey, you were(was) so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn’t enough.

I’m goin through it every time that I’m alone.
And now i’m wishin that you’d pick up the phone.
But you made a decision that you wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong…

(Together)
And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they’re gone and you’re wishing you could give them everything.

Ohhh, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
And now they’re gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it’s just a dream).
I travel back (travel back) (i travel back), down that road (down the road)(down the road).
Will you come back? No one knows (no one knows).
I realize, it was only just a dream (No, no, no…).

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes) (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it’s just a.. it’s just a dream).
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize (i realize), it was only just a dream  
(baby, it was only just… it was only just a dream)

Nooo… Ohhh…
It was only just a dream.
That’s it, time for me to sleep…xoxo
yeah I am bittersweet!

Random Thoughts (2)

Off for 3 days again, I thought of going on leave today because I need to go to SSS and fix what needs to be fixed I really thought it’ll take us the whole day,but to my surprise didn’t even take an hour. Which is great! So I thought of cancelling my leave & just go to work but when we got home my friendly visitor is here, been expecting for it to come like around the 5th of the month but then I realized it changes every so often,so fine now I’m nursing myself (grrr I so hate this agonizing pain!)

But you know what I tell myself whenever I feel pain ? “ That is nothing compared to what “Bro” did to save you, so complain less and the pain shall go away…”

And as you’ve seen in my previous entries I have spoiled myself by eating Hershey’s ice cream and lots and lots and lots of sweets – oh well it makes me happy but at least I’m not that hyperactive compared to other peeps that is so close to being “crazy as hell” due to excessive hyperactivity that it annoys everyone in the world. hehe.

Few nights ago me and my friend Rica (which has always been a subject in a few of my entries here) were talking about “The Secret” as we both understood it, it’s about the Law of Attraction, like how powerful our mind can be…like how our “thoughts” can turn into “actions”. I get regular emails from “The Secret” in which of course it never failed to enlighten me. Rica have read the book or perhaps listened to it as she prefers audio books than really reading one. And she told me about “The Secret” about relationships – like how the “clients” met the love of their life. I’ve been doing one of the things she mentioned for a while now ( I think since the last quarter of year 2010 ) but at some point I have unconsciously revert back to my routine…it was just last week when I thought of doing it again.

what was I doing? I sleep in one side of the bed only. Its like i save the other side for my future partner – sounds silly – but I like it, it excites me and at the same time it scares me.

And I can only think of one thing : my choices.

I chose to start a new chapter in my life – but the thing with new beginnings, something has to END (quote from Gossip Girl).

And I guess this is the nth time that I’m gonna say this. I have to end something that I held on to for a while ( almost 4 years if I must say) . I have fallen so deeply in-love, helplessly & unconditionally. I believe everything happens for a reason and I have listed a few lessons I learned from that experience.

I guess whatever we feel for each other is not enough for us to be together.

And letting go doesn’t mean that I wont be here for him anymore, I have loved him and always will so no matter what happen I’m still here for him…the only difference now is the space that he used to occupy in my heart/life is now empty.

That kinda sounds sad:

Here comes happy thoughts again, someone made me listen to Dashboard Confessional’s Stolen. I love this effin song!!!

I don’t understand why he made me do it and I don’t want to assume something that might disappoint me so I’m trying to stop myself from over-thinking.

Now aside from this blog and my tumblr. I have also a small notebook where I write whatever I feel like writing.

samples:

:the color of the page is pink,but turned white when i took the picture.

: I adjusted the settings of my phone and well – i need a better camera.haha!

: as much as I want to ask him why he made me listen to it, I think he will tell me the answer at the right time ( now, is that me assuming something? )

oh well.

 

Circles by Anthem Lights

The song was on my tumblr dashboard, actually it was just a cover version from 2 girls who got an amazing voice too, I thought of playing it and I fell inlove with the lyrics. I decided to check the artist in youtube too and boy they’re undeniably handsome.

Well I can relate to the message of the song and since I’m editing my photos it just occurred to me that I want this in my picture , and I must say that what I did is not that good compared to the pictures with lyrics I’m seeing online..so from now on I will practice more in this kind of stuff.

I hope I can buy myself a new camera. I’m only using my cellphone’s camera in taking pictures and I’m spending so many hours trying to edit each photo to make them look better (but I’m still not that satisfied with my works hehe)I bet with a better camera my pictures will be soooo much better too.

more pictures too come though, I took so many pictures last week and I just can’t decide which to post first, but most of it is available in facebook already.

BTW Anthem Lights I believe is a new christian band, if I remember it right they started like right around 2007 – 2008 ish. I’m too lazy to look for their site again. haha.

Ready Set Go
This is take 37, let it roll
I’m gonna get it right this time
Gonna fight this time
This time I’m for Real
Look at me go I’m off flying Straight as an arrow
Then I feel the wind blow in Gravity sets in
and I don’t know how to deal
I always start so strong

Before you even know it
I’m right back at the start
I’m doing what I hate
and breaking my own heart
I’m going back and forth
and then forth and then back
and then round in circles
I was never meant to travel on my own
so no matter what I try If I’m trying alone
I’m going back and forth
and then forth and then back
and then round in circles

VERSE 2:
Here’s what I know
Direction goes out the window
the second that I hear your word
I forget what I heard and go on just the same
the beautiful part it doesn’t have to be this hard
I’m just deceiving myself
I know I need your help
something’s got to change
I know I need to change, because

Bridge
No more insanity I’m letting go of me
all this independence has made me dizzy
and now I can’t see where I’m supposed to be
I had my turn and now my lesson’s learned
I touched the fire and I got burned
I need your healing touch
I’ve had enough
I’m tired of saying

and that’s the entire song.and just in case you wanna hear the song.try this.

the song goes to the same guy who made me love him for about 4 years now and still effin inlove with him. making me go around in circles…have no regrets though. I love loving you.

Need You Now by Lady Antebellum

This song is on replay for hours now. And I don’t understand why it affected me so much. It doesn’t sound like my kind of music actually but my ears seems to like it.

 

I’m reading (still) The Spellbook of Listen Taylor while listening to this song when I thought of cleaning my notebook – as in deleting some pictures that cannot be seen by anyone. I saw this old picture and I thought maybe I can play with it.

Yet another product of boregasm – teehihi, got the word from my friend Cheese.

Oh well. I plan to get some pictures of my friends and then play with it and have it here in blog, just like what I did to Rica’s picture. But she got a lot of pictures that I am interested  to post here.so.that’s it!

Lifehouse – Falling In

This band never failed to make me smile 🙂

just heard their latest song on the radio yesterday, good thing my internet is not acting up that I was able to download the song within 15 minutes.teehihi!

of course the Chorus is my favorite part!

Everytime I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don’t be scared, it’s only love
That we’re falling in
I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don’t look down, it’s only love
Baby, that we’re falling in

i also like their song BLIND!

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